adventure...

"I want adventure in the great, wide somewhere. I want it more than I can tell. And for once it might be grand, to have someone understand. I want so much more than they've got planned."

How typical of me to quote a disney song. But for some reason, right now, this little snipit of the song speaks volumes to me. I guess, on some level or another, this part of the song has always spoken to me but recently, I feel like I've been searching for something more than what I've got. I should be grateful for the things I have (and I am...probably more than anyone knows), but I'm still searching for that something to make me truely, truely happy. Oh well, I'm sure it's out there...I've just got to keep searching...until then, I'll just continue to relate to disney quotes.

I love reading...

I'm reading "Gone With the Wind" right now. I love that story. It's one of my favorite movies of all time. However, the book is taking me FOREVER to read. I've been reading it off and on (due to class scheduling) for like 8 months and am only on page 230! But, I still love the book. I think books are way more descriptive than movies and they allow you to imagine things differently than what movies provide. It's too bad that kids are reading books less and less these days. I feel like if they were to read, their imaginations would be so much better off. They rely so much on video games and television to keep them entertained. It's so sad. When I was a kid, my parents never let me have video games. I had to go to friends' houses to play them. I remember being so mad at them for not getting me that Super Nintendo but now that I look back on it, I have to thank them because if it wasn't for them, I would not have had to go outside and use my imagination to keep me entertained. I think that when I have kids, I'll do the same thing.

wth?

This week I've really been on edge. I'm positive it's PMS but I've never been this bitchy before. The other day, it seemed like anything that anybody said to me just annoyed the shit out of me. You could've told me I won a million dollars and I would've found reason to be pissed off. Oh well. I think the worst of it is over. If not, I pray for the poor souls that have to deal with me for the next week.

On a better note, I got a new phone yesterday! I'm so excited about it because for the past 3 months, anytime we've gone into the verizon store to upgrade, they've told us something different each time and we couldn't end up getting our new phones. My mom got a thing in the mail back in May saying that she (because her number is the primary number on the plan) was eligible for upgrade. So we go into the store thinking that we were all eligible and they said no, only she was eligible and that my dad and I would both be eligible at the end of July. So we went in last week (like around August 1st or something) to get our phones and then they said that I wasn't eligible until August 7 but that everyone else on the plan was. It was frustrating and I feel like this has been the longest week of my life (maybe that was why I was cranky, hmm) but when we went in yesterday, they FINALLY upgraded us! So now, I'm happy and content with my new phone.

I heard from Kim today. She's in Africa. It was such a bright spot on my day and her email gave me a smile :D. Although I miss her, I think that what she's doing is really awesome and it kind of makes me want to do it but I'm not sure if I would be able to. I think I need to research more. I can't wait to see what happens while she's on her journey and I look forward to her safe return home (whenever that might be).

uh...

I miss my boyfriend.  He just got a promotion at his job and is working longer hours.  It's a management position so that means more paperwork.  I'm trying to be supportive but it's difficult because that means that he can't spend as much time with me as he used to.  And I feel like that's really selfish of me because he needs the extra cash so he can pay the bills and such.  But it's still difficult because I want time with him...ugh it's frustrating.  I'm trying to be that supportive girlfriend but I'd like to see him every once-in-a-while.  When will I get my time with him back?

Still in need of a vacation...

...and still don't have any money to do so. But I may be getting a new job soon (if it works out well with my mom getting a new job). I guess we shall see. Hopefully the money woes will soon leave me behind and I can start making my way out of debt. That seems to be the biggest worry of mine lately (as I'm sure it is with everyone else due to our shitty economy). And hopefully I'll get one of those stimulus checks sometime in the near future.

Well, enough about that. I'm currently in the longest relationship of my life. Congratulations to me! We celebrated 7 months yesterday via phone. Unfortunately, due to his promotion at work, we don't get to see each other as frequently as we used to. Oh well, I'm sure it'll work it's way out and we'll get to spend more time together eventually. Camp is coming up in 2 weeks! I'm excited about that! I always look forward to it because it's a time of reflection, and a time to get away as well. I hope that it's a good year this year.

I need a vacation...

...to someplace exotic. Like Hawaii. Or Fiji. Yeah, I think I'd rather go to Fiji at this point. I've always wanted to learn how to SCUBA dive and then go to Fiji and SCUBA dive there. The problem is that 1) I don't have any money and 2) I'm a horrible swimmer. But I'd still love to do it. I need to marry someone who is rich and will let me travel all over the world whenever I want. I don't think that person exists though. At least not yet. Oh well.

Just thinking out loud...

I'm thinking about joining the Peace Corps. I have my friend Kim to thank for that. She is leaving for Africa next month and I must say that I admire her for that. Well, her leaving got me thinking. I want to make a difference in this world. I'd love to work for an organization like the UN one day and working in the Peace Corps would give me some really good experience on my future resume. I don't know, I'm just thinking out loud though. Two years is a long time to be away from my friends and family but it would give me a chance to see a part of the world that I wouldn't necessarily get to see otherwise. I looked at my options on where I could go and they are looking for people to go to Eastern Europe and Russia. If I went there, I would get the chance to take maybe some weekend-type trips back to Prague. I don't know. I'm just thinking out loud at the moment.